Someday, I will really know what I really want. The person to whom I'll give my true love. The job and occupation I'll be passionate about. The car which will bring me to good places. The the the.. The words unsaid and ideas abandoned.

But today, right at this very moment. I don't want cheesy romance. I don't want a serious job. I don't want a car, I want a bike.

I don't get it. All things are such a big blur, a confusing spin of a yarn. But I am hopeful 'cause I have "someday".

Today, I believe I am half empty and half full. How can I say so? I really do not why. I mean, yes, those bragging and all that jazz were just a front. A scradey cat's front. I really do not believe in myself. I mean I do know I am not in capacity to do great things. It's like a pessimist waiting on this world to be eaten up by monsters hiding at the corner of a street. I always need constant compliments to have job-well- done's. I mean I always feel I am nothing. But coming into senses, I believe the "less you know", the less wicked you become. And so know, I believe I am half empty and half full.

I'll search for a self. A strong and wicked self. OR NOT. :)

I can say that this is definitely the best summer. :)

I'm half-way done with my list! :)

[X] Enroll myself in a driving school. Forpeterssake, POLISH my driving skills
[X] Hit a beach.
[X] Get sunbaked skin!
[X] Get a good job
[X] Bum for a day, NO HOUSEHOLD CHORES DONE FOR A DAY WEEEEEE :)
[X] Watch DVD and TV series all-day-long
[X] Visit new places
[ ] Read books
[ ] Write :)
[ ] Catch up with my closest friends
[ ] Adventure with the people I love
[ ] GET FIT! :)

I have May with me. And I got you. :) So let's get this done done done. Okay? :)