I feel empty. Honestly.

I want to feel inspired. I want to meet new people, interesting ones. It's like my world revolves around boring, old people in my life and, yeah, school. You know, I'm 18. And I want some action. It's not like I want to have a boyfriend, to have sex with him, have a baby, have a crappy married life with him. Scratch that. I don't want a life like that. I want something else. I want something spice. I want to go beyond the normal. I want to experience new things even though I am weak. I want to feel less alone. I do feel alone every moment of my life. You don't get me with this side of my world 'cause I'm weird. Yes, there goes my friends and my family. But you don't know the feeling. It's like everything is superficial. I blame myself, at times, for my high expectations. But sometimes, I think I don't expect, I just can't feel that thing's are genuine. Today, I just want to leave all the people around. To leave all the things, even the most expensive ones. To leave. To go somewhere far. To cry. To laugh. To keep sane. To live in another shoes. To be someone else. To be. To be. To be.

To be. Yes, those two words. You, nonetheless, make me feel empty. Honestly.