YES things are messed up here in my small space. But I'll fix it after a week. So what's up? I am getting a part-time job. It excites me 'cause it will be my first time to earn REAL money from my hard work.

Yes this is great. Independence at its pure form, legit and grounded.

Yes I still have God in my heart, I never forget you. NEVER.

With regards to romance, we'd go zero. :) It's not a need to always be in love. It doesnt matter to me that I don't have someone to think about while listening to love songs. I really doesn't matter. Yes, I do have fantasies and God knows how I am trying to keep the clear, fine line between fantasy and reality. It's not about getting schizo or what. It's escaping and flirting with fantasy. There's nothing wrong with that. It's just flirting to fill in the human need and NOTHING MORE.

So, that's it.